This Necessary World of Objects

Includes the ordinary
and the unnecessary,
I used to collect more things,
back when I used to know my
own mind, when I used to anticipate
my own needs about
what I wanted at the toss of
a quarter or dime, to decide
there was no sporting chance
because I used to know and
it was all right because it made
things, objects, like a prayer
events happened for me.
I was always collecting,
Spode china, silver
drop earrings, creating a photogenic life.
Objects, clothes. A mural of what it looked
like to be me, to live as me.
I cannot believe now.
That I used to have a style,
I used to walk into a store and
immediately recognize what jacket
was wanted and which shoes
(as I said often out loud) already belonged to me.

 

Volume 12.1 - June 2019

Millicent Borges Accardi, a Portuguese-American writer, is the author of three books of poetry, most recently, Only More So (Salmon). Her awards include fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts (NEA), Fulbright, CantoMundo, Creative Capacity, the California Arts Council, The Corporation of Yaddo, Fundação Luso-Americana, and the Barbara Deming Foundation. The Journal, Laurel Review, Queen Mob’s Teahouse and Mantis are recent publication credits.